hello.
haha, i just got my sister to take a snapshot of my new shirt that i bought and it just so happens that it fits well into this post i guess... (really like my new shirt!)

anyway, i just want to say thank you; a warm thank you from the bottom of my heart for all of you that have been patient with me. thank you for being there, listening, waiting out for me to sort myself out. and i am honored to know the amount of cares, thoughts and prayers that went out for me. didn't know i meant this much.

the other day i received a letter from a friend. my heart went all toasty while reading it as i remembered the days of old when i was 'better.' i guess i have been thinking too much about could bes and wandered off wondering about the maybes; and got lost in the greys. i have taken a step back to my step one - back in school - and i feel much better already. it is two weeks away to my final exams and handing up of my papers... and a few months before i go into another depth deeper into my theological studies.

pretty excited for next year. i want to start a new chapter. this year has been a collection of try-outs for me and i have learnt much. i know now that i don't really know much about myself and what i think i know, is really just what i think i know and not the real thing. well, i know in the future i will get my moments and question if this is what i want. but then again, i don't know what i want many times. when i do find something that i want, i want something else. for certain though, this is what God wants.

and yes, thank you God for being patient with me.
help me love You more.

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"I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh." -Ezekiel 36:26